Can of worms.

Today I decided to contact an ex on facebook. Why?? I really don't know. I have seen him around a few times over the years but this was my first ever love, and lover! We broke up after a steamy, stormy eighteen month relationship, all of that was seventeen years ago. So why am I now choosing to open up that particular can of worms? Perhaps because I am bored, unsatisfied and a little lonely to be honest. I am curious about him and he is recently single . . . I think I need to have a stern word with myself and remind myself why we split all those years ago. His jealousy and selfish ways were unbearable, I decided that I didn't need that type of relationship and although it left me feeling bruised for a long time I decided to end it. It was the right decision and I moved onto many more fulfilling and satisfying relationships. So why hit self destruct now, and what will happen, clearly I do not trust myself and that is a feeling I dislike in myself. I need to hit the warning button big style!